Hmmmm

So we are in settlement stages for Drake. The insurance company offered $1500....Seems like a lot right? But we'd only net $270. Maybe I feel a little taken back b/c to me, $270 is a little low for what we all went through. So we countered $4000. But the net is what we'd get to do with what we need to do.
We'll see what the counter back.

Drake turned 5 yesterday. I cannot believe my baby boy is 5 now. WOW! Time flies. Drake's dad took him to Red Robin and to WalMart to buy some toys.

We are moving btw. Not far. Just 5 minutes away and same school district. The house is beautiful. 4bdr 3 baths HUGE backyard. And it has a HUGE laundry room. I'm excited!!! It's 2300 sq feet downtown. It's a lease purchase so that's AWESOME!!! It was built in the 1960's and has been totally remodeled. LOVE IT! It's perfect!!!!
Jason *should* start back to work this week or next. So that's helpful. His mom is looking into taking over the payments of our explorer so that she can pull the horses. So we'll be looking into getting another car.

I just cannot wait to have so much room, and a huge yard for the kids to play in!!!

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What it would be like to be able to just have a quiet night with Jason. I am honestly SICK of hearing about how my friends (with kids of course) are constantly going out. I dont care if you're going to the strip clubs, I dont care if you're going to the drag show. I dont care if you have a sitter for 3 days. I DONT CARE!!!
I live off of $350 a month, food stamps, a little help from my dad for utilities and basic needs. So basic I have to ASK FOR HELP to get toilet paper!
And i'm PISSED off that my entire tax check has to go to LATE bills. Like my rent that is late....that I havent paid since November. I cant even buy extra things I want for my family with any of it.

I know it'll get better. It has to right?

I highly doubt that my friends are rubbing it in on purpose. Or honestly dont realize that asking me to babysit for them until 2am is upsetting me. But right now, please dont. Jason and I havent had a night out alone since August.

I just dont want to hear it.

And the Mother of the Year Award goes too.....

NRH-D! For the love she doesnt have for her own daughter!
Sydney's own mother couldnt be bothered to be at her daughters 4th birthday party. What a waste of life she is! Really!!! I really dont understand this. I have taken the day off for Drakes birthdays and when I couldnt I at least took a half day. On top of all this, Syd's Gma let Syd ride in her lap home b/c "there's not a lot of traffic out tonight". I hate Syd's birth mom and I hate Syd's Gma!!! Typically, Syd's Gma will let Syd ride up front in a car seat. While not illegal, it's child endangerment IMO. But letting Syd ride in her lap while she drove is beyond something I can process! I just dont understand what the HELL this woman is thinking KNOWING the kind of wreck we were in. Can I also mention that Xmas night Syd's tonsils were touching and we took Syd back to Gma with the thought that Gma was going to take Syd to the doc on Monday. She was gonna take her Friday the 26th and they were closed. But Syd was obviously in pain!

Anyway. The New Year has started to look a bit up. Jason is going out to lunch with his boss on Thursday and I had an interview today. Ironically, I interviewed for my exhusbands exwife's old position. Wierd. I have no idea if i'll get it or not.
I have to keep reminding myself that things fall into place for a reason.
Jason and I decided to go ahead and get married once my taxes come in. So just a few more weeks. :) I love him with all my heart but right now, we're going through so much. I cannot wait to call him my husband. :)

Drake was diagnosed with Mono. I have no idea where he would have gotten it. But ya. Sucks.